Nirvana

Earlier I lifted my head up to the sky…Clear blue, with the white of the clouds…It reminded me that despite its hardness; life is beautiful! I smiled and slipped back into the real world…

I walked out from work to the darkness of the night unafraid , walking on my feet then riding the bus but my soul was floating in a world that I belong to more than this…Feeling a unique peaceful existence whereby the good that makes me happy and the bad that hurts me are both at the end equally perceived as acceptance! For neither is ever-lasting and both are the best choices made by God for me (when I have no hand in them coming to me)..

When it is involving me at this moment of time; no fear of what will happen to me the next moment, and no regret for all that happened in the past even my own mistakes (all but that smile I hid or the good words that did not pass beyond my lips or an indifference that covered unmeasurable care)…For myself is in the hand of God, my soul is a blow from the breath of its creator linked to all those whom I love…They were right to say that pain purifies us and faith heals the pain while giving makes the soul transcends ugliness that might cross its path!Still worrying for those I care for then I help myself out of it with forgetfulness of existence or remembrance of that they are seen by the eyes of that who cares for them more than my helpless self!

My soul feeling love that it was not frugal to those who came its way with a pure soul…It brings a smile that all bad that happens or pain that is thrown its way does not extinguish its cool fire that does not burn but purifies…

My life passed behind me was a gift I am grateful for, my future if it will exist is much appreciated!Could I have reached the state of Nirvana?! How long would it last for?! It does not matter..for right now it feels like I am thankfulness itself!I am breathing! I am grateful!

Notes from July the 30th 2016