“Make just one someone happy and you will be happy too!”
Mum was unwell last night, so both my sister and I stranded far away from where she is were too worried to sleep and kept disturbing our siblings back home to get updates.
For the last few years, I had this fear of losing one of my parents. Just the thought makes me feel breathless! I know that the day would come but I know that I am not ready for it and will never be ready ever! I must admit that I once selfishly wished to go first, until I realised that if I did go first their pain would be so great and I could not stand it either! So, I stopped thinking about who would die first. Thankfully, before the sun rises this morning, my mother got better!
Late again to take the bus and arrive in good time for pre-work work, so I ordered for a taxi. He was at the door 15min earlier. I realised this is likely the same person from yesterday and I was right!
“Good morning!”
“Good morning!”
“How was your first day yesterday?”
“It was good. I had 5 more other customers after you”
He looked pleased. I told myself, since he came back for me, then his experience with me was ok (trying to convince myself sometimes that I am a good person! (Eh!). Today, he got the car set on the right direction before I come and got me to work in no time!
No blueberry muffin for me today and no Costa’s hot chocolate. I told myself, not too bad in comparison to yesterday!
As I arrived at my desk, I felt comfortable, peaceful, and fresh. It felt like everything is in the right place. I knew that I had a long day ahead, but I knew that I could do it all and well by the will of God.
I had a mixture of patients in the clinic and one registrar helping. A few with Addison’s disease and other causes of adrenal insufficiency, some with thyroid disease and others with hypogonadism. They all have interesting stories, but for confidentiality I could not share any details. However, I could share that I had the joy of reviewing someone who feels now much better after a treatment we have initiated earlier and the pain of catching someone on phone just after he was told that he has no cure for his cancer. He was about to drive himself back home on his own. I wished I could hug him or drive him home. I could do neither, of course!
Ah! I was about to forget the sudden outage of our electronic system. I was with the second patient in the clinic. Thankfully, I have reviewed all her records prior to calling her in. So, when the system went down, I could capture her information and assessment in my notebook to transfer earlier. I started wondering thereafter about what has happened, but I took the opportunity to go to the medical school building and on the way back got hot drinks for me and my colleague before the system recovering. It felt like the end of the world for a minute! I thought that might have been a virus and I joked with myself we should name it “Camicron”!
Teaching and another meeting before I leave home. Phones, food, and “Sleepless in Seattle” which brings us to the end with the title above, but I think I need to sleep so would not tell the reflection about this! (To be true, it was more exciting, but I am too sleepy to care about how this piece would look like!). Sorry!
Good night!
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