Our lives are stories, we tell in every action and every word. We interact with all creatures and we learn lessons everyday. Here is a story that is being told through her eyes as she observes the world and learns.
The best answer you give to adversity is moving forwards and upwards with confidence and a smile that your depth is more than the superficialities of the world and your potential is unlimited! Believe me, one day you will meet the past and you will realise that the gift is within you and is not waiting to be given to you!
Of the lessons I have learnt over the years:
If you want a new year resolution to stick and be part of your life, you need to start it at the end of the past year. That way, when the first of January of the new year arrives, you have already started a new habit and it is less likely that you will get bored or demotivated.
You think that you have something to say until you try to say it. Then all disappears. You wonder if you have overestimated the value of what you have or what you can say. Anxiety?
You want to write sincerely, but there is fear of who you deeply are slipping in every word.
And there is fear that the meaningfulness you aspire to, does not exist or is hidden from your words.
Earlier I lifted my head up to the sky…Clear blue, with the white of the clouds…It reminded me that despite its hardness; life is beautiful! I smiled and slipped back into the real world…
I walked out from work to the darkness of the night unafraid , walking on my feet then riding the bus but my soul was floating in a world that I belong to more than this…Feeling a unique peaceful existence whereby the good that makes me happy and the bad that hurts me are both at the end equally perceived as acceptance! For neither is ever-lasting and both are the best choices made by God for me (when I have no hand in them coming to me)..
When it is involving me at this moment of time; no fear of what will happen to me the next moment, and no regret for all that happened in the past even my own mistakes (all but that smile I hid or the good words that did not pass beyond my lips or an indifference that covered unmeasurable care)…For myself is in the hand of God, my soul is a blow from the breath of its creator linked to all those whom I love…They were right to say that pain purifies us and faith heals the pain while giving makes the soul transcends ugliness that might cross its path!Still worrying for those I care for then I help myself out of it with forgetfulness of existence or remembrance of that they are seen by the eyes of that who cares for them more than my helpless self!
My soul feeling love that it was not frugal to those who came its way with a pure soul…It brings a smile that all bad that happens or pain that is thrown its way does not extinguish its cool fire that does not burn but purifies…
My life passed behind me was a gift I am grateful for, my future if it will exist is much appreciated!Could I have reached the state of Nirvana?! How long would it last for?! It does not matter..for right now it feels like I am thankfulness itself!I am breathing! I am grateful!
Notes from July the 30th 2016
I am not the person I have been years ago and certainly not the person I have been in the near yesterday..I have changed, sometimes, because of life but mostly because I wanted to.
When I was young and relatively immature, I wished that I will never change. I loved myself as it was, I wanted to be loyal to who I were and resisted change..Until one day I realised that change is good..That a better me is never a betrayal to who I am because who I am would want to grow, to improve, to rise, to better itself and that kind of change is loyalty in practice..To be loyal to yourself to let it be what it is destined to be..
And, I have learnt that it takes a lot to embrace that change to the better is never going to change the core of my soul..Change meant that the mistakes of yesterday are not going to define who I am today..That mistakes will be lessons, and I have made quite a few from which I grew…Change meant that hope does exist..The opportunities I have missed, the things I have not done and the things I did not become before can no longer be disappointments, but, an understanding of what my soul would wish for and will not miss again when more opportunities come my way, and opportunities are certainly to come as long as I keep breathing…
I have learnt that change is good but it is difficult..As difficult as going through labour..But, labour gives birth to a new soul and a new life worthy of being cherished and embraced..I have learnt that the more difficult change is , the more lessons I will learn, so with change I have embraced the difficulties. Through pain, tears and suffering I have become a better me each time..
I have learnt that I might not change to what I wish for sometimes, but, that as long as I can recognise this, I am safe…I can change one more time..A failed trial means there is a chance for an outstanding discovery..
I have embraced the cycle of change…an endless journey..a painfully beautiful path..but, I have learnt that to go through it and to get the best out of it, I must learn love…To let love come my way and to let love come from within me to the world..To accept love however it is offered to me and to give love just as my soul decides to let it be born…I have learnt that to love myself and to love others is to give the core of me the opportunities to make change the best experience and a mean to be the best of me..
Happy everyday to the soul of me and welcome to CHANGE!
When they change, let them be! Hold their hands to be the best they can become or just let them be!
Notes from December the 24th 2017
I always wonder where the story will take me next and how it will end! I watch it with wonder and look for the next chapter with joy, caution and sometimes sneaking fear. But, there is always faith deep within the heart that the teller of the story is merciful and kind and the story will just be right and wonderful!
I am one of you human beings. I lived 34 years so far on this planet earth. I do not know how long is left for me here, but I have learnt from life and people and I want to give back by sharing the lessons I have learnt by telling the story of life observed and sometimes lived.
I will write anything that might be of value to someone whoever that one is, wherever that one is so that one knows s/he is not alone and that life could be a wonderful experience.
I am a daughter, a sister, a friend and a doctor and I am trying to write.
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